+~a howl of pure ecstasy~+

who am i? why i'm here? wat do i want?

2nd June 2005

Yawn~ I think I really land myself in deep deep shit. I'm doing things that I DON'T wanna do! Oh my god! This must be the worst phase of my life. I felt that I'm forced. Guess I really REALLY dislike (shan't use "hate" as this will irritate me more) my job. This isn't what I wanted in the first place! Oh, I must be conned... I feel like I'm in Hell every morning I wake up. I don't like to meet doctors, nurses blah blah blah... Basically, I just don't wanna talk too much / sociate with people that I don't know. I'm not a boring person but these people that I speak/spoke to really give u colours. Someone please tell me how to get out of here! Al mighty! Show me the Light!

Well, I still got my darling Gerald who perks me up with every phone calls and his sweet-nothings. Life's not as bad actually (to console myself). He still makes me angry though. He knows... I'm really fucked up. His sudden attack of tickles, chase my bad mood away. Haha. Thank God I got him!

I think I'm also very silly to sign up a savings-investment plan. How am I gonna commit myself?! Commitment means less shopping (not even GSS!), less good food to eat and less movies to watch. Arrgh guess I just mess my life up again.

Speaking of movies, we just watched Star Wars and Hitichhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. As usual, Star Wars lotsa surprises, jedis, Light Saber and space ships. It's the last episode but I can't feel a thing! Maybe a new Star Wars wil come up the next decade: Star Wars - Rebirth. Haha! As for Hitchhiker's, It's silly, ridiculous, crazy, stupid BUT it's worth a good laugh!

"I'm lazy, not motivated, am lazy"

jOoOoOey sparkled at 10:40 pm